Down, down the toilet we go...

• My life is spiralling downwards...and it'll keep going down..unless something happens

Looking back on this statement, I'm a bit wrong. My life isn't really spiralling downwards, my future is. Everyone's life goes through its rough patches and I'm sure my life isn't different to anyone else's that much. But the way I'm going now, I don't see much of a good, desirable future for me. I was at a wedding reception party and as I watched the fun and celebrations whirl around me, I kept thinking about the future, my future. The majority of people here were very successful or on its verge. So I began thinking of my future, all the bad scenarios and all the good scenarios. I began going off at tangents, wondering about different roads I could take. The road of being a doctor, pharmicist or lawyer had no real appeal to me. I couldn't summon any enthusiasm about it. Sure making money is always a good thing, but when you hate your job to the core...it doesn't really work.

So I jumped on the careers bandwagon that I heard about before; all that examining yourself and trying to find skills that you could use in your post-education life. And I took a long, hard look about what I wanted to do. To this end, I've been considering a career in research, something where I can sit done and do some quiet research. Maybe it's not the most fabulous dream or goal, but it's realistic and it's what I want.